So far...

Wow, they really weren't kidding when they advised us to "practice walking." It's not the walking that hurts, it's being on your feet from 8am until 6pm every day, and then again most nights. It's Sunday evening; since arriving on Friday night we have had walking "tours" of the Old City, all the gates, around all the walls, through the surrounding valleys, been in all four quarters (Jewish, Christian, Muslim, Armenian), seen different things like the Via Dolorosa, St. Anne's Cathedral (the birthplace of Mary and where the pool from John 5 is located), the probable site of Golgatha (Church of the Holy Sepulchre), the City of David (not in the walled Old City of Jerusalem), Hezekiah's Tunnel, the Siloam Pool, and the Western Wall. Not to mention the lectures and different tour programs and models about Jerusalem through the centuries and how many times it has been conquered and changed hands.

Western Wall

The weather has been great; a little chilly but beautiful, blue skies & sunny. Last night we went to the Western Wall (aka the Wailing Wall) and took a tour of the wall underground (only a small fraction of it is showing; most of it is encompassed by the Muslim quarter, where the Arabs have built their houses into the wall. Beneath what is visible, the wall goes 40 feet down). The largest rock that Herod used was 40 feet long, 10 feet high, and 12 feet deep, weighing 600 tons, and no one knows how they were able to move it there...no equipment that we have in existence today would be able to move it. (Jamie I remember you telling me about this after your trip, it was fun to see it!) :) Tomorrow I think we are hitting the temple mount and some other things in the Jerusalem area before heading out to surrounding areas for day trips until we leave to go south on Saturday.

Kim & I around midnight at the western wall

Here are some pics around town: the Dome of the Rock (which we'll see better tomorrow); some houses in the City of David, which is now an Arab village; a model of the walled city during the 2nd Temple Period (Herod's temple mount; 539 BC - 70 AD); and some candles in St. Anne's Cathedral...

This afternoon we went into Hezekiah's Tunnel. I was expecting it to be a lot colder, but it was fine, and it was kinda fun in there! It was built to bring water into the city from a spring outside the wall. They started chiseling from separate ends, and it gets pretty windy and zigzaggy in the middle; it's a wonder the two crews ever found each other under the mountain! It's over 580 yards and takes about 30-40 minutes to get through. At some points it's shallow water, other times up to your thighs; it's pretty narrow through the whole thing, and you are stooping over in areas, and in other areas the ceiling is really high. Oh, and it's pitch black in there! This is one of the coolest thing we've done so far (in two days!).

Kim getting a little deeper

Some of the ladies in our group after emerging from the tunnel

Making friends...

...friends with guns. There are more...with different soldiers...maybe I will make a collage. :)

we made it...

Shrine at the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, Jerusalem

This will be short...I haven't slept since 6 hours on Wednesday night. We made it safe and sound this afternoon, and we're now at our hotel in Jerusalem (we're ten hours ahead of the west coast). They drove us through the West Bank on the way here; the highway was completely blocked off from Palestinian villages with tall walls and barbed-wire fences, so they really have no access to highways, Jerusalem, or anyplace in Israel in a timely manner. We learned how to tell the difference between the flat-roofed houses of Arab villages and the red slate rooves of the Jewish villages.

We glimpsed the Dome of the Rock as we drove to our hotel in Old City Jerusalem near sunset. We dropped off our bags at our hotel and walked through the windy alleys to change some money and ended up at the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, which is thought to be built on Golgatha, where Jesus was crucified. Tomorrow we'll go more inside the walls and gates and temple and all that. I'm so tired! :)

procrastination station

I'm back in LA for less than 24 hours. Christmas was jolly, it even snowed. Here Lindy and I ran outside for about a minute. It didn't stick though. Now begins the fun adventure of repacking my suitcase, for farther destinations this time. Tomorrow at this time I'll be sitting on a plane waiting to take off on a direct flight from LAX to Tel Aviv! And I'll be sitting on that plane for the following 13 hours.

So I am blogging, emailing, and I'll go for a run...I HATE packing. I usually need someone in the room with me to just sit there and make sure I am staying on task. Almost everyone is out of town, so I shall forge ahead on my own this time. After I make a few phone calls...

28-year-old ornament

Merry Christmas

We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ, the only Son of God, eternally begotten of the Father, God from God, Light from Light, true God from true God, begotten, not made, of one Being with the Father. Through him all things were made. For us and for our salvation he came down from heaven: by the power of the Holy Spirit he became incarnate from the Virgin Mary, and was made man.

To be honest, it is easier for me to find meaning in Easter than Christmas. It's easier for me to look past the bunnies and chocolate to the resurrection of Christ, than it is for me to pay no attention to Christmas trees, carols, cookies and gifts (oh, the gifts).

Especially this Christmas as my family learns to adjust to new traditions amidst separations and changes, the reason we're all together is sometimes easy to overlook.

In light of looking more directly toward Grace, its meaning, its implications, and its Creator and Giver, Christmas is a reminder of the great lengths God went to, the great Grace he extended, to reconcile to himself those who were undeserving and frankly incapable of understanding his gift.

When it is a question of a sinner He does not merely stand still, open his arms and say, "Come hither"; no, He stands there and waits, as the father of the lost son waited, rather He does not stand and wait, He goes forth to seek, as the shepherd sought the lost sheep, as thewoman sought the lost coin. He goes - yet no, He has gone, but infinitely farther than any shepherd or any woman, He went, in sooth, the infinitely long way from being God to becoming man, and that way He went in search of sinners. --Soren Kierkegaard

quote of the day

"I do all my glove and scarf shopping in England."
-Mom

go seahawks :)

listening to the rain

I'm home...Seattle home that is. It's pouring rain at the moment and I am inside in my pjs sipping cider with nothing to do today but wrap presents and see about getting some form of exercise at some point. :)

Mom and I went shopping last night for a lot of those last minute detail things for Israel. I leave on Thursday! It feels like I lost Christmas somewhere in between school and packing lists and international travel warnings (our professors are very good [err, obsessive] at updating us on any little detail that pertains to traveling, Israel, our trip, or anything that has to do with anyone who ever went anywhere). I'll have a day to pack when I get back to LA then we're off.

My sister and brother-in-law are staying here with my mom right now while they're in transition with some job stuff. It's fun having them around! They're gone for the weekend to Portland to see his family, so I will have some much-needed forced relaxation for a few days. I have friends to see, but once I get here and I don't have to do anything, it's so hard to want to make the calls and give up coveted do-nothing time! I'll get around to it, I guess. My supply of friends up here has dwindled over the years; it's hard to maintain lots of friendships when only in town for a few days at a time, and when usually I want to spend those days with family. But there are some left. :)

My sister has all her presents wrapped and under the tree...in skull paper. :) She made it herself (this pic is with my cell phone so not too clear). Silly girl.

the boss

A few months ago I switched over to the youth (jr. high, high school, college) departments at work. With that transition came a new boss...it's a good change I think. Keeps me on my toes.

It must be the end of the year.

Uh...ummm....letting off some steam at a Christmas party this weekend...

Losing My Mind, Vol. 2, Issue 17


So, that Monday night appt. that I have every week? The one where I locked my keys in my car twice last month. The same one I've had every single week, same time, same place, for the last 9 months. I missed that meeting tonight. Wasn't even a blip on my radar. Wouldn't have even known I'd missed it if not for the concerned message on my voicemail that came later on. Wow. No big deal, you say. Ah, but I don't miss things. I am (anally, some might say) aware of my schedule and what is going on around me. I am a responsible adult who follows through.

Unless it's at the end of a semester in the middle of Christmas season when I have a trip home looming and an international trip planned immediately afterward. (Last year around this time I forgot to turn in my Joshua curriculum to my independent study professor...that curriculum that my whole grade was based upon. Whoopsies! I remembered it on my flight to Seattle. Thankfully he took it over email and we all lived happily ever after...)

I'm just saying...lots on my mind + lack of sleep = decrease in effective brain function.

To change the subject a bit, the other day I was laying on my bedroom floor and found myself face to face with my carpet. You know the kind...old apartment carpet. The kind where other people's stains come back up about a month after you've moved in.

It got me thinking about how we see ourselves. Seems it's a constant struggle not to liken ourselves to that old carpet. No matter how much you clean it or what you do to it, it's still a dirty old carpet. Likewise, no matter how much "cleaning" or how many good things we do, eventually those old "stains" come out and still remain the things that we define ourselves by. To take the metaphor to utter ridiculousness, it's a challenge to really grasp the fact that we've been made "new carpet" ... ok I'm done with that one. But this seems to be a theme in my thinking lately: grace, sin, and taking them both seriously. More later maybe.

And for the record, our carpet is really not that bad...just one faint largish stain in the living room that looks like someone spilled juice a long time ago or something.

little lindy lauren

Little sister turns 26 today!

Lindy & Nate in the Safeco Field dugout in Seattle last spring

I am
done with school for the semester.
done with my Christmas shopping.
done with work. (Ok, I wish. 4 more days and then I'm off for a month!)
exhausted.

On a side note, I love being 28!

On another side note, I ran last night, an easy 3 miles, for the first time since The Fracture. All is well. I feel my rib, but it's not pain. Enough slacking off now! :)

Only in Southern California

.....do I see an ice cream truck. In December. In what some may even call cold(ish) weather. (I'm wearing a sweater anyway, because the AC in the office is cold.) And yes, it was playing Christmas music.

Luke's emphasis on social activism :)

At the Getty...yet another random picture to make blog seem more enticing

You're going to think I've gone totally off the social gospel deep end after reading this post. (Or not. I hope not. I haven't. I just keep learning things that are contributing to my conviction that we - evangelicals - do not pay enough attention to this area.)

So I just finished project #2, a "biblical theology on community and leadership in the local church." That was a mouthful. The project was even more complicated. Anyway, I just spent a lot of time in the "outreach" section in Luke and Acts, and our Dr. Luke seems to have had quite an emphasis on helping the poor! I've identified three values: Association, Advocacy, and Giving (can anyone think of an "A" word for "giving"???) ...

Association: spending time with sinners and the needy. Jesus did it. The disciples did it. From eating with Zaccheus, to spending time and healing the sick and demoralized, to showing concern for needy widows, Jesus made this a priority. (Really if you've spent any time studying the life of Christ you've recognized this.) Peter and John healed a crippled beggar; Philip talked with the Ethiopian eunuch; Peter interacted with a paralytic, a widow, a tanner (who was by definition ceremonially unclean), and Gentiles. (I don't feel like typing out references, but I can give them to you if you want.) Point: Jesus and his disciples spent a large amount of time associating with sinners, poor, marginalized. Do we? We can't love them or tell them anything (the gospel!) if we don't, and words are better received from those who have established themselves in relationship and service to those they wish to reach.

Advocacy: defending and upholding the cause of the poor. God is concerned for the poor: see the Sermon on the Mount (Luke's version, especially 6:20-21); the poor are the focus of God's banquet (14:15-24); the Messiah was identified by his concern for the poor (7:18-23); God focuses on ministry to the poor (16:19-31). We cannot highlight this emphasis in Scripture enough, and this is only from Luke! We must advocate for the poor and marginalized who are unable to do so for themselves. This includes working to change laws and social structures that foster disparity and raising awareness on social justice issues.

Giving: sharing with the poor and needy. John the Baptist exhorted his listeners to share with the needy (Luke 3:7-14); the Pharisees were exhorted to share with the poor (Luke 11:39-41); Jesus recommended giving to the poor (Luke 12:33); the poor as the focus of ministry without expectation for repayment (Luke 14:12-14); the rich young ruler is exhorted to give all to the poor (Luke 18:22); Paul reminds us of Jesus’ concern for the poor (Acts 20:32-35). After meeting the needs within the body, we are also called to help the poor and needy financially.

Biblically I believe we are to care for the needs of other believers first, but we can't lay aside the clear call to care for the poor in general. Again, our emphasis on evangelism and salvation is key. But evangelicals are a long way off from a proper balance of evangelism and social justice concerns. Including myself. This all just represents recent personal convictions in this area and my attempt at a biblical, balanced perspective. :)

briefly...

1. It is the return of my ADD. It seems to only present itself when I have great amounts of work to be done. Take today, for example. I am going to sit here in front of my computer all day working on three projects that are due Wednesday. Same plan for tomorrow, and Monday night, etc. etc. Yet I am happy to get up to do anything else possible; things that I would ordinarily frown upon. Deep cleaning the bathroom. Cleaning out my closet. Cleaning out the fridge. (Why do these all involve cleaning?!)

2. I am abnormally sore today. I am trying not to do much these days because I actually did fracture my rib Thanksgiving week (well, Nick did it) and broken rib bones don't take kindly to running, twisting, laying down, breathing... I am off the pain meds but feeling sore today and I've come to the realization that last night's Indian Leg Wrestling Match with my roommate (it was more like a demonstration) involved nearly all of those frowned upon activities.

All right, it's back to my Apologetics outlines, please stop distracting me.

This is my "why."

At a great trafficking seminar on Saturday I heard a wonderful illustration: A man held up a $10 bill to the group he was addressing and asked, "How much is this worth?" The answer, of course, is $10. Then he crumpled up the bill, stomped on it, and put a small tear in it. "Now how much is it worth?" he asked. The answer is still $10.

People are the same. No matter what we do, or what is done to us, we don't lose our value as people made in the image of God.

That is really where my heart is in any kind of ministry...that people (particularly women & girls in my case) understand and realize their value and worth. More often than not it takes a great work of redemption and restoration on God's part, and it's that part that I long for in people's lives. I've seen it in my own, and I want it for others. From the high school girls in my church to the women and kids who are rescued from the very worst circumstances imaginable in a brothel or the street...all are inherently valuable because of who they are and who made them; no one ever decreases in worth. A realization and understanding of this truth empowers and restores. God is indeed in the business of redemption.

This is why I do what I do. :)

surprise in my cereal bowl

This is after the senseless drowning.

freeing the oppressed

A few weeks ago I was explaining the trafficking issues to an older, missionary gentleman and he looked at me blankly and said, "Must be a generational thing." Huh.

This isn't generational. It's a 9 billion dollar annual industry (in the U.S. alone). Modern-day slavery involves 20 to 30 million people worldwide. It's not a generational thing.

Here's what I think: Catholics have the social justice thing down. Evangelicals have the evangelism thing down. But when Jesus quoted Isaiah 61 he didn't stop at "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor." He continued, "He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives, and recovery of sight to the blind, to set free those who are oppressed, to proclaim the favorable year of the LORD."

So, yes, trafficking victims need to hear the gospel, and I believe that Jesus is the only one who can ultimately set them free and heal them. But the message will not have much of an impact if we do not address their oppression, their basic needs, their distress.

This is not a generational thing. It's a misunderstanding of a proper balance between evangelism and social justice. You can't have one without the other. It's like a plane with two wings; it can't fly with just one of them. This applies to ministry in general, I believe. A mother will not pay much attention to your words if she doesn't know how she's going to feed her child its next meal. Jesus met physical and spiritual needs. We need to do both as well.

Cartoon by Dave Walker. Find more cartoons you can freely re-use on your blog at We Blog Cartoons.

San Francisco, near Fisherman's Wharf

I locked my keys in my car last night, in the same exact time and place I did it a month ago. Last time I actually left them IN the ignition; this time they were on the front passenger side seat (where I had set them down while I gathered my purse and other belongings). Even better, the same exact tow guy came as last time. You'd think I wanted a date or something. As he left he said, "Am I going to see you again?" Uhhh....

I really think I am losing my mind.

Thanksgiving was great, aside from my fractured rib (just don't ask). I went with Ramesh & Janell up to Ramesh's uncle's house in Pleasanton, where we joined 30 of her closest relatives for My Big Fat Persian Thanksgiving. Basic Farsi skills would have helped immensely. :) Even though it wasn't my family, it felt like a big warm family holiday gathering (well, it WAS...) and we had a lot of fun, some great conversations, and I enjoyed the time with the girls. It was good to get away, from school work included, however now I am wondering what's going to happen with these two grandiose projects I have due in two weeks that I have yet to think about.

tulip

We had a long drive home from the Bay area today. For a little theological entertainment, we came up with the TULIP for the single person (a la the 5 points of Calvinism):

T - Total celibacy
U - Unconditional matchmaking

L - Limited options

I - Irresistable chase

P - Perseverance of the single

back in the saddle

Went for a ride today for the first time since I stabbed myself in the hand. It's still a little sore with pressure, but definitely good enough to ride if I hold the handlebars a certain way. :) It was SO good to be out there again, I've really missed it! I was enjoying the silence as I pedaled through the great outdoors of Fullerton ;) and noticed that my legs feel a bit more like jelly after those steep hills than they used to.

So imagine my surprise as I came around a corner about 45 minutes into my solo ride and found this: Janell had been at my apartment fixing her tires when I left and I didn't know she was going to go out for a ride after. Apparently she didn't make it very far. I rode back to the car and went to go get her and her flat tire.

So good to get out again!!

the perils of church hopping (Part 2) OR, why does this follow me everywhere I go?!?!

(This post is continued from the previous post below...)

This is just an old picture of me getting my hair done last year to trick you into thinking

that this post is not really just a lot of long rambling words and thoughts

and to start reading.)

I don't consider myself a church-hopper, actually. I am rooted...in two churches.

Church #1...I work in the office, I taught bible studies the last two years, I worked on the women's curriculum, I am starting lay counseling training in January, and I've been asked to be part of the high school leadership and a college girls small group leader in the New Year. (!) I've been at this church for 3 years and they have taught me how to teach, given me ministry opportunities, and taken care of me financially. I love the emphasis on Scripture and teaching, though there is a big hole community-wise for people my age and demographic (nothing in between college and young married/family groups). I plugged in through my bible studies and women's ministries. It has felt like home in the past, though not so much very recently because I have been around less.

Church #2...I've been attending for the last year, mostly the Sunday night services, but more recently Sunday mornings. This church feeds me differently, and is more in line with my family's ... uh ... worship style and tradition. The worship fits, I would go there for that alone. Except they are doing amazing things in the community, such as the human trafficking issue. And a few professors from Talbot are on staff, so the teaching is generally strong as well. I have done some prayer counseling (on the receiving end) there, and they have a ministry and prayer style and ministry opportunities that I really value.

Yesterday Janell and I attended the trafficking conference with ladies from Church #2. I'll just cut to the chase...the women's ministries director asked me if I would teach a study. Any day I want, morning or night, on any topic I want. She also asked if both Janell and I would want to teach workshops at the women's retreat in May.

SCRREEEEEEEEEEECH! (That's me slamming on the breaks. Like, "beep beep back the truck up!") How does this happen?!? Everywhere I go. My whole life I was asked to teach and always weaseled my way out of it because I didn't feel I knew how. At Whittier Hills I learned, and now I know how. And the moment I spend some time with church #2 leaders and they learn a little (tiny!) bit about me, it comes up again. It follows me. I cannot escape. Perhaps it is my CALLING. :) haha

I took this year off from teaching at church #1 so I could finish up school (and I just needed a break from stuff). So I'm not going to jump into anything. I told her the things that I like teaching, and that I'd pray about the workshop, etc. But here lies the problem with trying to be part of two churches. You can't be involved in both, not the way that I'd like. My Sundays could be Church #1 in the morning, Church #2 at night. I could fill 3-4 weeknights with high school group and bible study at church #1 and a women's study at church #2. Oh, and also the lay counseling training and another training I'm going to be doing at #2 for working with victims of trafficking. But WHY would I want to do that? HOW would I do that? WHAT DO I DO?!

I'm not leaving church #1. But I also really love church #2 and it meets some different needs for me. I am praying about bringing some of this trafficking education to #1; I've already been asked to talk to the high school group about it, and I'd love to do more church-wide awareness stuff. I know there is no church that is going to have everything, but I feel the importance of finding a home and settling there. Both churches are good, strong, and doing great things. For now I am going to keep involvement at church #2 to a minimum, since I feel committed to #1. And I'll stop rambling now.........

discipleship by participation?

Have you seen the article in Christianity Today about Willow Creek? The one where they admit "We made a mistake"? Willow Creek is one of the most influential churches in America, one that so many churches have modeled their ministry after. Their model is business - churchgoers are customers and God is the product. So they ask, how do we best market God to the consumer? Getting people participating in activities and programs on a large scale is how they mark success. This kind of success, they thought, produces disciples of Christ.

But new research that they have been conducting in their church among the congregation and the community shows that this has NOT been successful. Bill Hybels admitted, "Some of the stuff that we have put millions of dollars into thinking it would really help our people grow and develop spiritually, when the data actually came back it wasn’t helping people that much. Other things that we didn’t put that much money into and didn’t put much staff against is stuff our people are crying out for."

Instead there is a very, very large congregation dependent upon programs and activities and unable to demonstrate that they are capable of being "disciples," let alone making disciples of their own. Hybels continues, "We made a mistake. What we should have done when people crossed the line of faith and become Christians, we should have started telling people and teaching people that they have to take responsibility to become ‘self feeders.’ We should have gotten people, taught people, how to read their bible between service, how to do the spiritual practices much more aggressively on their own."

That so many people have modeled their own churches and ministries after this large church has to be disturbing. I think we have created an American Christianity that is represented by people that do not know how to engage in spiritual disciplines, do not know much at all about theology or WHY they believe what they believe, could not defend their faith to anyone if asked and are timid to share about it because they don't know how. What about teaching people about prayer, fasting, and reading their Bible? Serving and loving others? Teaching by relationship and modeling leadership that way? Programs provide information, but without practical experience and leaders willing to be honest and vulnerable with their flock, we fail in these fundamental areas.

Greg Hawkins, another pastor at WC, doesn't believe that this church's reign of influence over the American church is over... "Our dream is that we fundamentally change the way we do church. That we take out a clean sheet of paper and we rethink all of our old assumptions. Replace it with new insights. Insights that are informed by research and rooted in Scripture. Our dream is really to discover what God is doing and how he’s asking us to transform this planet."

NO!!!!! (Sorry.) Research? Rethinking? New insights? It would seem that if they were really seeking to do "church" in a way that is rooted in Scripture, then all the research, thoughts, and insight they need would be found there (in Scripture!). It worked then. We really don't need to reinvent the wheel or change the fundamentals found there to produce solid, informed, intelligent disciples of Christ. I hope they really are able to discover what God is doing and "turn their ship around" so to speak in a way that is truly based in Scripture and able to produce the kind of ministry and disciples they are hoping for.

You can watch what Bill Hybels said here.

that is one MONSTER of an APPLE!!!!

meet my Israel roommate...

This is Kim...and this is what we do in our Israel preparation class...

before I die...

I want to ride in a sidecar. Aviator cap, large goggles, and scarf flying behind me. It must happen.

Maybe not so much like this...

Ever since Indiana Jones, the thrill and danger and ridiculousness has been so attractive. Where can I do this? You don't see them around much anymore. Perhaps I shall have to go to Germany. There's a lifelong dream to be fulfilled!

Am I now well-rounded?

We register for spring classes next week and I was just perusing the schedule of classes. I know what I want to take for my FINAL class. I only have to take one next semester. I just added up all my units again and double checked all the requirements (just to make sure I'm not destined for some colossal disappointment when meeting with a graduation counselor - think I'm supposed to meet with one this month) and I am SO CLOSE to being ALL DONE.

I just made a list of all the classes I've taken over this long road...it's kind of interesting to look at the list and try and remember what in the world I learned in each one (just kidding). But overall I think the program is pretty well-rounded for ministry and I loved my personal emphasis on Biblical Studies.

Here they are, in the order I took them over the last four glorious years (humor me):

Hermeneutics
New Testament Survey
Old Testament Survey
Theo 1: Revelation & Nature of God
Personal Foundations of Ministry
Theo 2: Works of God, Angels, Man, Sin
Evangelism & Follow-Up
Theological Research Methods
Exposition of Genesis
Elementary Principles of Biblical Languages
Spiritual Mentoring Group
Theo 3: Christ, Salvation, Spirit
Arranged Course: Matthew (My Bible Study curriculum)
Theo 4: Church & Last Things
Life of Christ
Arranged Course: Joshua (Bible Study curriculum)
Exposition of Daniel & Revelation
Historical Theology Survey
Educational Ministry in the Church (Christian Education)
The Church & Society (Ethics)
Biblical Theology of Leadership & Community
Apologetics
Bible Lands Trip (Israel, leaving December 27!)

In the spring I hope to take a seminar on spiritual warfare and then I'll be peacing out. Oh if only it were already May... :)

bye bye

Helped moved Ramesh & Janell out of their apartment today (this is them waving goodbye from the old living room) and into a new place. It's a good and needed change! Thankfully (for me!) they only moved down the street. They aren't next door anymore, so I'll actually have to drive, but they're still close.

TGIF

Thinking about my sister and her husband today, who are in the midst of some tough career and financial stuff. Feels like my family is going through the ringer right now, from all sides. I have a hard time not carrying other people's burdens too heavily myself too...

Thank God it's the weekend, I think I'll be sleeping for about 24 straight hours.

Memorial

My grandma said that she never heard my grandpa say anything bad about ANYONE, as long as she knew him. They were married 62 years. I'm not sure I can even get through a week (a day...).

A charicature done by someone at the nursing home last year...looks just like him!

Tonight after the service we went through a big box of old pictures of my grandparents and their family (my mom's family) from the last 60+ years. I snagged a few to take home with me. It's been good to piece together different puzzle pieces of his life over the last few days.

tired

What a loooooooong day. We gallavanted around Seattle all day long like tourists. It's fun to see cousins we haven't seen in a few years. Tomorrow is the memorial service; we spent some time today talking with each other about our memories of our grandpa, realizing how we got to know this strong man in the weakest time of his life, when his illness had taken over his body. But such character and grace that he showed even at the end of his life was cultivated over a lifetime. I'm looking forward to hearing from those who his life touched tomorrow.

my widdo bwudder

Travis turned 23 today...SO OLD! (Maybe in another 7-8 years you'll catch up to how old you actually look.) :)

embracing my blackness

Enjoying the fall colors here that we don't have in Cali...